Ricky Martin 'Wasn't Living to the Fullest' Before Coming Out: 'Been Super Happy Ever Since'

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"I got to the place I was fighting as I was writing my book between saying, 'Am I gay? Am I bisexual? Am I gay? Am I bisexual?' " he said. "And either is okay; just go within and do not lie to yourself. And then I said, 'Rick, you are a very fortunate homosexual man. You are gay.' And I wrote it and I pressed send, and then I cried like crazy — and I’ve been super happy ever since."

In January 2018, Martin told The Daily Show's Trevor Noah that his decision to come out was "extremely painful," especially since those around him urged him not to.

"I was surrounded by a lot of friends that were telling me, 'Don’t! Don’t come out, it will be the end of your career!'" he said at the time. "People that love me, people that mean well, people that were just victims of homophobia."

"If you add to that the fact that I was like a heart-throb, like a sex symbol — everybody was telling me, 'It’s going to be the end of your career,'" he added. "It was extremely painful for me until I said, 'I can’t take it anymore. It’s all about me now, it’s not about what’s happening outside. It’s about what I need in order to be happy.'"

The deciding factor came down to becoming a father to twin boys, Matteo and Valentino, who turn 12 later this summer. Martin is now also father to son Renn (whose birth he announced in October) and 18-month-old daughter Lucia, whom he shares with husband Jwan Yosef.

"I had my kids, and I said 'I have to come out. I’m not going to lie to these beautiful kids,'" recalled Martin.

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